I'm beginning to feel more whole again. The second week wasn't that bad, as they said it would be. I've been taking it really easy with my elbow and it's paying off. It is getting better and better but I can't do chaturanga dandasana yet. I don't feel as if I've made a big leap physically yet. I'm focusing on strength since this is what I lack. Even though I cannot do chaturanga that would really give me arm and choulder strength I do lifts from the floor holding my feet up and lifting with mula and uddiyna bandha. I have already gotten stronger. I use the blocks to help me get of the floor and I will by some of my own, they are really good. I will continue to work on strengthening core and arms after this months teacher training before I do more headstands and go on to more challening arm balancing asanas not to hurt myself. I have gotten even more careful of how far I push myself. It's so easy to get to attached to progress and doing the cool asanas. I will really build from the ground up, taking my time. One teacher put emphasis on always doing the lift of to build arm strength to be able to in time with training do the lift and jump back into chaturanga and eventually the flowing motion that is so beautiful. In just two weeks Suryanamaskar A and B has transformed into such an easy light flowing feeling in my body. Even though I feel stiff and have some pains from all the training I still feel light.
Yoga outside of the mat: I'm so much calmer now. I don't go into my oldest daughters drama anymore. I guess she feels more safe and calm with me now because yesterday she opened up and talked calmly about her life in a way she has never done before. If this is what yoga can do then it is totally worth it. I thought that we might never be able to come to a point where we could really communicate in a peaceful way. Now it happened and it was one of the biggest gifts in my life for many many years. I will for sure continue doing every day yoga. It charges me with energy and vitality and makes me calm and focused. I look upon people with eyes that do not judge and I feel so much love for my fellow man and peaceful inside.
We are a group of seven at teacher training and they are great. So much positivity and empathy. I think a strong bond is forming. Everybody are really supportive.
Practicing at home
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