A new begining!

06.05. Woke up feeling rested after only six hours of sleep. I guess the increasing light is affecting me to sleep less. The slow energy of winter is leaving my energysystem.

Today I will do hatha yoga. I feel my body is ready for it. This winter I've had musclepain and being extremely tired. Blood tests show nothing. I'm in psychotherapy. Coming in contact with childhood traumas can cause physical effects like this, my therapist says. I've done hatha yoga several times during the past few months. The effect after just a light training has been extrem musclepain and dizziness lasting for days. Could be the many years of holding down anger.

Giving up patterns I've held for many years is quite a work. I'm afraid yet happy it's happening. I feel lost. I've held back anger really strong. It's like that emotion hasn't been in my vocabilary. I will see if some boxersice can help me come in contact with anger more. In some ways I think a part of me has chosen the practise of hatha yoga as a way of not letting anger come forth. I've released tensions and upheld the image of myself as a happy and "holy" person. I will not give up hatha yoga but I will add some more explosive practices.